i am brave

Share a Selfie with One Word ~ day one

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yes, i was triggered with all my underlying stuff – fear, shame, comparison, judgment but i also had this tiny kernel of excitement and anticipation of sharing with others and maybe being seen.

maybe seeing myself.

normally i am the one with camera in hand taking photos, documenting life, sometimes hiding behind the lens. if i see a camera pointed in my direction, i tend to duck and cover, dip my head, look away or hide in the back row.

for the last 10 days i engaged with an online community. these women, unknown to me, gently offered encouragement, affirmation and acceptance along with an invitation to look at myself with new eyes, through my camera lens and consider seeing myself as beautiful.

each day at 1:29 AM an email would arrive with a prompt to explore and document with my camera ~ with the emphasis on me.

this was offered by Mindy Scime and called Selfies as Self-Care.

you can find out more at ~ http://www.mindyscime.com

“We will bear witness to another and, if you let it, this process will change your life. There is an amazing, healing power in being seen in our truth.”

i made a commitment.

i wanted to give this a shot to see if anything changed.

Your Mug ~ day two

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my daily ritual of tea, held in bent, arthritic hands.

Grateful Heart ~ day three

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Favorite Quote ~ day four

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all will be well, all will be well and all manner of thing shall be well.                     julian of norwich

Beautiful You ~ day five

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“Last year part of my awakening was falling back in love with getting dressed.”

how do i dress? how do i adorn myself? what makes me feel good?

Black and White ~ day six

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In The Mirror ~ day seven

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in my childhood mirror, in my guest room….saw myself in a new way in the midst of things that need to be changed.

Eyes Closed ~ day eight

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“Some days it feels really hard to look into my own eyes.  Yet, I crave being seen.”

“I turn the camera on myself because I know it holds the power to create a shift. I may look away or even close my eyes. It feels safer, less vulnerable somehow. Simply taking the picture, seeing myself, shifts my energy. I am able to step closer to self-love, self-trust, self-forgiveness. When I tap into my bravery and share the picture, all the magic that comes from being witnessed in truth comes pouring forth.”

Embrace yourself ~ day nine

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“What parts of yourself are you denying?”

my voice. my words. my knowing. my own grief. my own life.

What’s Shifted? ~ day 10

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what has shifted? i am looking at myself with a different kind of compassion, w a sense of “what is” instead of what i have been told, what i tell myself, what i carry from the past. maybe i am seeing myself as i see others. inside, i still think i am 35. i don’t recognize this old woman, scarred and sagging and gray. i am in a corner, with a choice to stand straight, to look myself in the eyes, gazing and welcome this aging self.

i have been vulnerable. i am stronger and more alive. and i am brave.

amazing what 10 days can do.

4 thoughts on “i am brave

      1. I’m sure we will 🙂 There are so many wise women on the internet – it’s truly a blessings to be living in the West in the 21st century!

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