a bio is daunting when so much could be included…. so, i ask, what are the important pieces of my life? how i would want to be remembered and known? i have always told my family that my life theme or tombstone comes down to “it doesn’t take much”.
my family ~ one husband, blind and unemployed creating for me the new responsibility of primary care giver and provider. three adult children, providing me daily opportunities to let go and trust that they are in charge of their own lives. two granddaughters, reminding me to see with new eyes and open heart. a mother with a recent stroke and a large extended family attempting to re-form and re-engage as our parents age and adjust and change.
i am a hospice chaplain and in awe of the dignity and rawness and humor and absurdity and wisdom of life and death every single day. i provide ongoing care for my mother during this transition time as we share art projects, attend “Backstrokes” http://www.ohsu.edu/xd/health/services/brain/in-community/adult-education/backstrokes-music-group.cfm a music group for stoke survivors, and work together to explore the meaning of life following a stroke.
creativity is important to me and i struggle to find concrete ways of expressing myself. i dream of living at the beach with time to walk and draw and paint. opportunities to express myself with my camera or rocks. because life is demanding at this stage of life, i just have to pay attention. as i write, i can see the morning sun on the bent head of a sunflower, filtering through the leaves. those are the passing moments of beauty that for now are tucked into my heart and spirit.
so, it doesn’t take much ~ being connected. speaking truth. seeing beauty. breathing. loving and being loved. for now.